Everything happens for a reason.
No, I don’t think so. I’ve never believed in this. I’m not against it–it just doesn’t hold much weight with me. Lately I’ve been hearing it quite a bit, and I nod and smile politely in response, but I don’t believe everything happens for a reason. Especially when things happen and I don’t understand the lesson I’m supposed to learn. If everything happens for a reason, then why don’t I get it? Why am I left completely confused by it all? These emotional punches in the gut knock the wind out of me. Time heals, but I don’t know that I’ll ever fully understand. And that’s a tough pill to swallow. My mind continues to search for answers, even when it knows there are none.
I guess I’m more of a “shit happens and then you die” kind of a girl.
But then sometimes things happen and I wonder if I’m wrong. You know, like when all your life you’ve dreamed of seeing dolphins in the wild, then suddenly the universe puts you in the middle of 500 of them. And you wonder why the universe has to mess with your head like that. Because you don’t trust the universe not to pull the rug out from under you again. Because your heart still hurts and the questions linger. But maybe, perhaps, the universe is trying to answer my questions. Or maybe it’s not. I don’t really know.
I suppose what I’m trying to say is that somewhere in my heart I wish that everything does, indeed, happen for a reason. Maybe, anyway.
Your move, universe. I’m waiting.
Here are this month’s photos:
I took photos of this little lady a few years ago. She was but an itty bitty baby then. ❤
Title: Best Assistant Ever
Chaelon is graduating from CSUS and going off to do wonderful things with her life. I will miss her tons.
Title: Eagle Falls
I booked a mentoring session with uber awesome photographer Brian Rueb a couple of weeks ago. His work is amazing and I want to be like him when I grow up.
Title: Lake Tahoe
We were on our way back when Brian pulled over because he saw these rock piles from the road. Randomly pulling over because of a photo op is one of my favorite activities.